For the first time I have someone who I feel like I can talk to, and not be judged for it. You just make me feel better when I get upset about stuff and don't get angry about things that are beyond my control. It's wonderful and thank you. I miss you too much.
In other news, Paul told me when he leave I can keep his nametag! Yay!
Right now I am too exhausted to do anything but I can't go to bed yet. I plan on going to bed at 8 and sleeping for 12 hours. That should balance out the fact I've been up since three nicely. Moving along, Harpreet was talking to me today about how I should take advantage of the free medical I get from Safeway and use my $300 allocated for eyecare. So, I'm going to look into getting new glasses, ones I'll actually wear. Ones that will look sexay on me! So, basically I have nooo clue what is bouncing around in your head sometimes. It seems like you're implying stuff sometimes. But, I don't know. Dang, if only I could read minds! Just, some of the things you say. I don't even know if I'm there yet. But, I'm getting there. Just, after you say some of those things there's something in the way you kiss me that leads me to believe.... Whatever, we have time to figure this out.
Ahh, 3:21 AM and I'm getting ready for work. Thrills. I'd be really stoked if I could not be starting work at 4 AM and still get off early. I guess I shouldn't really complain though, I have 40 hours this week while a lot of people are getting like 10-20 hours a week... I made a really delicious pasta salad last night, I'm rather proud of myself. I was really awake when I woke up, but already I can feel myself getting more tired, sad times... Oh well, I warned Matty that I may fall asleep tomorrow, this is something he just needs to accept.
Ah, so all my worries were put at ease and everything went over better than I thought. Thankfullly. I don't even know what to write right now... I have a lot bouncing around in my head and no clue on how to begin to get it out. Hm, well, I can't pretend that I didn't get disappointed the other night. Oh well, it just kind of shows me what comes first for you, and if that's not us, then so be it. Just don't expect me to treat you well when you don't do the same for me. I don't appreciate being lied to. Tomorrow is Day 2 of 7 days of work in a row. Whoohooo! I am stoked, only not at all. Aaaand, Bakery meeting tomorrow, eek. Except, I really made the bakery look sexy tonight, Karen best appreciate it. Yesterday was pretty awesome, and by pretty awesome I mean 110% awesome. I am so happy just being with you. I've never had anyone put thought into a date like that. I loved walking around the art museum with you, and making fun of/questioning/coming up with explanations for modern art. "This seems to be... A pile of dirt." I also love experimental cooking, and that you know just when I need to be held during a movie. Heck, you know just when I need to be held in general. I just feel better when I'm with you. God, I'm tired. Time to take two Tylenol flu Nighttime and pass out.
Soo, I was feeling weird and stuff last night, I'm not even sure why. Oh well. I am so glad I have two whole hours until my shift starts, instead of having to start right now like I normally would. That would be lame! So, instead of working during these two hours I am going to work on the thing I'm giving you tomorrow (eek!) and really, really hope you love it. Please do! And I'm going to work on it after work as well. I was it to be perfect... Whatever that is. Aug, anyways, I am really excited to see you, and for us to be all cute and stuff, because we seem to be good at that. AND, Art Museum? Hellz yes! I am really down with music right now, I mean I always am, but I have weird happy feelings about music lately... If that makes any sense? Also, so, last night was not awkward, up until the point in the car when Allyson said "Oh, so are you two dating?" "Oh, right, Brittany you have a boyfriend!" Yeah, excellent. Oh well. Moving along.
My throat is starting to hurt. However, strept throat isn't really down with me. Sooo ColdFX here I come. Seriously, best 20 dollars I ever spent. I realized today when I'm feeling down I write better. My thoughts seem more intelligent. Lame! I folded stars today, which I missed. But I also don't typically have time to sit down and folding paper stars for three hours. Oh well. Uhg, Wednesday begins my seven days of working extravaganza. Kill meee.
I don't want to go to work. Amber's right, I should've called in saying my parents died and I need the day off. Except, then they might give me too much time off. Oh well, on Thursday I'll be glad I worked today. Yep. Baump, I need to leave for work within like four minutes. I will squeeze out every last second though. Tomorrow is V-Day and I am quite stoked. Morning = seeing my BF for like two hours, before he has to go to work. Afternoon/evening = Amanda funtimes! :) This year will beat last year, for sure. Well, just it being a new year already beats it. AAAAND, i really enjoy our AM talks. (not the radio frequency AM, the early morning time, like aftermidnight) It makes me happy and ah, just wonderful. I can't see how things could get much better. Kay, WORKTIME.
Okay, so, I know no matter what you'll appreciate what I give you. AND, I hope this is cute and you realize how much I'm putting my heart into it. I know you will, but I still worry. Hence why my head is spinning in fear that you'll be like "Uhhh.... Sweet?" AUG. I don't even think I've put this much effort into something for someone... Oh, wait, maybe, that time. Yeah. That was about the same amount. But, anyways. I hope this goes well. I hope it's cute and stuff! <3 Now, back to making cute happen and panicking! Whoohoo!
God, I love Vancouver. Tattoo = Approx. 600. Which means I can go for a consultation... Then BAM. After four hours or so I will have a tattoo! I think this will be happening sometime in March, after I get my Vacation Pay from work. So, Tegan and Sara last night. Amazing. Best show of my life, obv. My heart stopped.
I'm not sure if you do. I'm not sure if I do. Buuut, some of the things you say make me think. I don't know. Whatever. I love spending time with you. Lawwwllll. But for serious? I am so happy with you. And no matter what I will be here for you during this. I might not always know what to say but I am pretty damn good at knowing when a hug is needed.
I can feel myself getting better! YES. Thank you ColdFX, I am able to move a whole lot better now and it's mostly my stuffy nose and sore throat that is bugging me now, which will be fixed by gargling warm salt water. YES. I am so glad.
Oh my god. I woke up this morning and I am definently sick. I don't know how I'm going to make it through work. I am dying. My throat hurts which is causing an ear infection, my head is POUNDING, my body is weak and standing takes so much effort. Whyyy?! I am so glad I have tomorrow off, I'm going to lay in bed all day and make myself better.
I'm a little concerned that someone would say those things about me? Yes, I was drunk, but I am also quite aware I did not do that. Whatever, people are retarded. It's just weird and embarrassing for me. I have to work today, poop. Well, at least it's not cash. And I do need the hours. I have like zero this week. And by that I mean I'm only working three days. And only one of those days is eight hours. Eeep! Also, time flies by quickly. I knew it was coming, but when you mentioned it I realized, if that makes sense? Haha, oh well, I'm happy and excited for whatever happens next :) <3 AND, I had a lot of fun last night. Haha, soo good :)